Jumping Out of My Comfort Zone
I'm not a big risk taker. I may take calculated risks, but only if I really believe they will end in my favor. But that has changed these last few months. I didn't just step out of my comfort zone. I took a flying leap off the cliff of my comfort zone. How's that? Direct Sales, folks. I joined a direct sales company.
I never expected to go into sales of any sort, but especially not direct sales. Previously, I never considered sales jobs that were based on commission because if I worked I wanted to get paid no matter what. But with some sales jobs, you get a base salary and then commissions from your sales. Not so with direct sales! No matter how much you work, you only get paid if you SELL something. OY.
I like security. I like knowing what to expect. I hate surprises and the unknown. So the fact that I've decided to go into direct sales, which is not a "sure" thing, has been a flying leap out of my comfort zone, to say the least.
There is a lot to learn about the world of sales, specifically as an independent consultant. I'm my own boss, but I still have to adhere to certain rules set out by the company who owns the products I want to sell. I'm in charge of my own hours, and yet, I find myself working more often than I expected to. But not because anyone is making me. I'm working because I want to succeed. I'm scared of failing.
There is an "all or none" side to me that I have a hard time fighting. If I don't quit this, then I'm giving it what I've got to do it as close to perfect as I can. I want to do things and do them well. I do not like mediocrity.
My fear of failure has held me back from a lot of things in life. Athleticism doesn't come naturally to me and I let my fear of failure (and being made fun of) hold me back from trying to be athletic for basically MY WHOLE LIFE. It wasn't until about 3 years ago that I finally dabbled into the world of exercise.
I don't want my fear of failure to stop me from trying something new anymore. I'm going to push through. And I know this won't be easy.
I'm testing new waters and trying to chart a winning course. I have control issues, for sure. But I’m trying to use that to my advantage instead of letting it bring me down. And look where it has brought me! Here I am with my own website to blog about whatever I want. This has been something I've wanted to do for a long time. Joining direct sales just gave me the kick in the pants I needed to do it.
I'll take that as win today!